"It's both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so deeply."

This isn't a fact infused, well thought-out or planned entry, this is just something I think about a lot and am using this blog entry to splash my thoughts out in front of me; it could end up being a 30 second read or a 10 minute read. But my ultimate motive in posting this is that, sometimes, feeling so much so often, thinking so much can be scary and feel lonesome so for anybody reading who might relate to this post, I hope this might be able to remind you that you're not all on your lonesome, ever.

Whenever I think about how our thoughts can have an effect on us, I automatically deem them as a curse. Which, when you're lying in bed at 3am staring at the ceiling for the 20th night in a row, it is only naturally to start fighting with yourself. Why am I thinking about how that stranger who I'll never see again looked at me? Why am I worrying about something that is so unlikely there's more chance of pigs flying? Why can't everything just make sense now? Why am I so emotionally invested in everyone and everything that I almost cried at the sight of a man eating his dinner by himself? (This is a true story people.) Why must I feel so much for everybody affected by any disaster or accident? Most importantly, why can I feel so much sympathy for all of these people and overthink all of these situations without giving any thought to myself? Why do I keep pouring emotion from a cup that's very nearly empty? Why, why, why, is the reoccurring theme here, and yet, none of the answers are obvious or simple and it seems as though feeling everything so deeply can only lead to disappointment and a whole lot of upset. How could this be anything but a curse?

Well, I'll tell you how.

Vulnerability is your truth and the truth is your superpower.

We should take absolute pride in having a heart so open, so willing to love that we will allow ourselves to feel all the emotions in the world in an effort to understand others and to understand life. The sleepless nights are preparation for when we're living our happy and successful lives that we deserve and haven't got the time to sleep. The constant questioning is broadening our horizons, giving us reason to keep moving forward in search for the answers. Most of all, feeling anything is a blessing. Numbness would be the most terrifying way to go through life. Feeling is what creates the difference between existing and living. So even when everything just seems overwhelming and you feel like there's something wrong with you for being emotional just remember, you are brave to live in a world full of so much uncertainty and manage to sustain your sense of self, your morals and your big heart.

There has been so many times that I have been told I need to stop being emotional, to stop caring so much and one time in particular, I was told I would never survive in this world being so emotional and open-hearted. Well here I am bitches, I'm surviving and I will never close my heart to anybody or anything.

You should NEVER apologize for being sensitive or emotional. It's a sign that you have a big heart, and that you aren't afraid to let others see it. That takes real courage. Showing your emotions is a sign of strength, not weakness.